2008...

This year has definitely been a very eventful one...

But there is apparently too many to list...

If you were there, then you know what went down in 2008.

For me, i survived LVN school for starters. Met new faces and lost a good handful of old ones (good riddance). I became a guru for some and watched new relationships formed.

As i sit here at work ( as usual) i can't help but still contemplate on the past. I live with no regrets. Things happen for the better. I got better at seeing a person and their true colors. I finally found happiness. And i can absolutely say that this year was definitely the BESTEST one yet.

Reality finally hit me this year. As i surf the Internet for old friends that i lost contact with, i cant help but start to think that shit, my time is almost up. I never thought about marriage or family before until this year when all of a sudden all these wedding announcements and baby showers come runnin through my mail box. At least 3 people i know of almost same age level as me are getting married. When i was younger i never thought about the person i was with, if that was the one i would end up with. I wasn't a big believer on everlasting love. Maybe because i have seen so many fail at it. Or maybe i had a different perception of it all. Heck i was too young to understand it all. but now as the years pass me by, now i know.

Not to sound all sappy or anything. But I guess when you find that person, you just know. Its like that feeling that lasts inside you. The feeling that you still get as if it were the first time. It just doesn't end. That if you were to hug that person, it would feel just like you did the first time you hugged them. But its also that comfortable feeling. Like you are best friends, but still very much in love. As if there were no words to explain that feeling you get. Just simply loved.

I never had that feeling... until now. Things happen for a reason. If I didnt waste 9 years of my life with my past, then i dont think my future would of found me.

Can't wait!!!

I just got back from droppin off family at the airport. The sister, her bf, and 2 of my cousins will be in PI for a month! With brother being in Canada too, now I'm stuck at home with parentals. After dropping them off makes me more excited to be leaving soon! Can't wait... Philippines and Japan here I come!!!

40 days and counting!!!

Bra's vs. Cars

So topic of discussion came up last night... it was me, Kate and Alyssa on one side and Niel, Rodney and wingard on the other. Us girls were talking about clothes, then bras, then on to relationships, while the guys were talking about cars. So it was interesting to hear another girls opinion of the matter on relationships. It came about when Kate was talking about how she first met me. Then how Rodney and myke came close. Which made more sense to me now of how things were. Apparently myke and Rodney became closer after the his relationship ended with his ex, which by the way his ex is dating my friend. When Kate asked me if i still talk to my friend, i told her not as much just like i had anticipated. I get that when ur in a relationship, that yeah its all fine and dandy that you want to spend all the time in the world with that person, but you also can not neglect ur friends. There is that saying that boys/girls come and go, but ur friends last forever. Which is true. So we started to talk about that, how we still need quality time with friends jus as much as ur bf/gf. Then i got to think about my past. Man was i in a rut!!! i totally didn't get to do what i wanted with my friends without getting grilled about it or my phone ringing every min. Then i started to think back on the friends i lost because their relationships totally took control of them. Makes u wonder... I wasted 9 years of my life on someone that was never going to stay in my life. I had to reconnect with the friendships that i neglected for a relationship that was not going to succeed. live and you learn...

last night as i sat there, i would glance over every now and then at Kate and Rodney. they are so much in love with each other. Then i would look at Niel and he is the most sweetest guy i know. he took care of them that night when he didn't have to. but the best thing about him is that even though its been a year, he still doesn't mind if I'm out and about.

2008 is coming to an end real fast. I'm very grateful for those that came to my life and i don't regret those that left. I'm happy for new relationships that have begun and I'm sorry for those that failed.

while watching the office...

I wanted to say i had a total blast tonight for kate's birthday! Not enjoyin the fact that my hair smells like cig smoke, but its all good. Lots of love to my baby love for buyin wine and drinks for people that night...

again... happy birthday kate.. may you have many more enjoyable moments like this...

BIRTHDAY GIRLS!!!

Happy birthday,...


Kate...



and Julianne!!!

Happy Christmas EVE!!!

So its christmas eve... and im at work.. but only til 1pm. Funny how earlier i said that it finally hit me that it was christmass time.. i take that back. i tried to get into the spirit of it all, but i cant. even though i have the christmas songs goin on here at work, i still dont feel it. i dont know if its cause the economy is struggling, or what not. I dont know what it is, but i dont feel it. Eh, hopefully new years is better.

Birthday Girl...

""HIROKO!!!""

christmas shopping

Wish me luck

Apples 101

this is the conversation we have been discussing for days, and i finally proved my point that there are different kinds of apples and that they do taste different.

anne michelle: did you eat ur apples????
niel: ahh no
niel: imma do that now
niel: hol up
niel: somebody ate my red delicous
niel: delicious
niel: danngit
anne michelle: u have another one
niel: where?
anne michelle: i gave u today
niel: where?
anne michelle: white bag'
niel: OHHHH THATS RIGHT
niel: lemme get it
niel: thats right
niel: hahahahah
niel: alright!@!!
anne michelle: ok
niel: so what tastes better???
anne michelle: taste red first
niel: are you sure they are diffrent
anne michelle: dont question me
niel: ok
anne michelle: bite the red delicious first
anne michelle: eat swallow
niel: done and done
anne michelle: now bite the other
niel: point taken
anne michelle: hahaha
niel: hahahahaha
anne michelle: and there you have it
anne michelle: another lesson learned
niel: hahahahha
niel: thanks baby

and that there ladies and gents was my thursday night online conversation...

::: date night was great today. Four Christmases - great movie... :::

my condolences...

go out to charise for the loss of her grandfather and her 8 day old niece...

Charise...

I did this once before... but i deleted it. and since CHARISE decided to tag me... and I have no intentions to tag anyone else...

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog/Facebook note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment or tag them in your note to read this.

1. I really don't like it when people cant spell words properly. It makes me think that they are very uneducated. (example: sweeti? what the hell?? spell that shit right) i understand if its a TEXT message and your trying to break it down, but if its something else... come on now..

2. I've pretty much been there, done that. There probably isn't a situation that I haven't dealt with before. So for those that come to me for advice and for those that don't take my advice usually get assed out in the end. So therefore "I told you so"

3. I totally love my brother's new girlfriend. No one can compare to her.

4. Even though Ryan is not my blood cousin, I treat him as if he were.

5. I hate high maintenance people. I'm not one of them, but my boyfriend totally can spoil me with little things.

6. I'm notorious for getting a nail in my tire. I have had 3 this year and finally got AAA again.

7. I'm always looking for bargains. If there is a close out sale, you can definitely count on me being there.

8. I'm very dependable to my true friends. If they needed me to be there, i would be there as soon as I can. I would drive the distance for them.

9. Nursing was not my main career choice.

10. I can make the most dopest picture quilt/blanket.

11. Til this day, my boyfriend still properly asks me out on dates.

12. I get a whole week to celebrate my birthday.

13. Ask me if I'm happy.

14. My god daughter is my mini-me.

15. I am always trying to organize things.

16. I have a friend who i consider one of the betters out there that even though I haven't seen him in years, he still updates me on himself. He gets to the point and is very blunt. And I'm glad he considers me a good chick friend. Besides my baby love being my "bestest", this guy i consider my best guy friend who tells me how it is.

so i was driving home from work...

and this totally caught my eye...

Santa...

Every year he comes to our neighborhood... and he gives out 1 apple and 1 candy cane.

This close...

So last night, after i had dinner with niel, i left to go to wingards place to get my DS back. As i was getting onto the 91 freeway, for some odd reason i was very alert with my surroundings and i noticed this white car speeding pretty fast and barely misses me. I thought he was some typical asian guy tryin to prove a point by speeding fast. That was until he sworved and spun out. I thought he was tryin to drift and since the freeway was somewhat clear (at 8:15pm?) i thought he was tryin to be cool. but that wasnt the case. i barely braked missing his dumb ass. i was more afraid of gettin rear ended by another car, but luckily there wasnt anyone behind me yet. so i immediately hit my hazard lights. i kid you not.. i think i was maybe a few inches of hitting this dumb ass (thank goodness for brakes). but the thing was at the end of it all.. i wasnt shook up or anything cause it would of been his fault. as soon as he got himself together he drove off to the side of the freeway. he is so lucky i braked or i would of totally destroyed his driver side and it would of so not been a good way for me to end my year. Shit fucker got lucky he didnt get killed. i dont know what it was that was goin on in his head or if even taht was intensional but im just glad im ok.

santa came to my house last night too.. the city of paramount do it every year on a tuesday where santa comes on a sleigh and hands out 1 apple and 1 candy cane. this year they got smart and put them in white paper bags.

What if?...

I used to do that alot... I used to wonder "what if?". Today I caught myself shredding paper and was wondering "what if i placed the scissors in the shredder? what would happen?" sure enough.. the shredder started to take the scissors and i immediately turned it off and pressed the reverse button cause i couldn't pull it out. Then I got to thinkin... Its been awhile since i wondered the "what if's?" in my life. I notice that i don't do that anymore. Well, lately at least. I guess I'm pretty content with where I am at this point in time. Yeah i still have my occasional moments of trust issues or what not. But who doesnt???

Tonight: dinner with baby love... then christmas shop!

Tis the season...

FOR MY MITTENS!!! YAY!!!... (i wish i was still in my warm bed...)

=/

The holiday season just hit me... and it took this long for it to hit me

::SIGH::

my fave...

December...

I have yet to do my christmas shopping. I think i knocked out about 3 gifts so far. UGH.. totally lagging. I normally knock all the christmas shopping within the first week of december. I guess im totally lagging cause my month of november was totally busy.. With me and Niel's birthday being in the same month, it just makes it hard to finish errands. But it was totally worth it. This past week, baby love totally made me feel loved. And it was all worth it (yes i feel guilty now).

2008 is almost to an end. There has been alot of memorable things in 08' that i probably will write about when the time is near.

I cant wait for christmas to be done with. After that, I need to save up for my trip to the Philippines/Japan in less than 2 months.

AGENDA: Work, Buy Niel a new phone, Dinner with Parents and Fam (if they arrive), Excel my expenses for the next 2 months, work on who to get what gifts for, and then fold my clothes before they get more wrinkly than they already are...

he..

completes me...

Quality Time...

Is fuckin amazing...

Strip Club...

Well i can honestly say my boyfriend totally made my night. When he said he was going to make it rain tonight, HE MADE IT RAIN!!! My night started off with him takin me out to eat at Benihana (awesome). Then after going through disappointments, I was like "fuck it, im drinkin tonight and gettin a lap dance" Shortly after Niel sent me to his car to get a white envelope out of the glove compartment, i was amazed to find an envelope filled with single dollar bills. Boyfriend was not kiddin when he said he went to the bank to get singles. He took out $200 in singles just for my night. Shortly after, Clark, Chris, John and Hiroko came. Then i called Philip to tell him he didn't need to come out from Moreno Valley for me, but he did anyway. We arrived to Fritz and niel gave me and hiroko some ones and made us sit by the stage. We totally had a blast. Philip came afterwards. Philip gave me single dollar bills too. Ernie came about an hour later. I made about 4 stripper friends there that night. Even though the people that were broke, didnt care. They still came. There was this one stripper girl, named kinko (i think thats how it was spelled) totally made my night. She had the dj announce happy birthday to me and when he did, niel totally made it rain on one of the stripper girls... money was just straight flyin in the air. I bought my girl Hiroko and niel's brother clark a lap dance by kinko. SHe kept tellin me " girl its your birthday, you shouldnt be buyin dances!!!" she totally hooked up me and niel with a 2 for 1 deal. Everyone got dances that night. And it was never ending drinks for us. Niel totally hooked a girl up. I became pretty popular that night. It felt like disneyland with every stripper there tellin me happy birthday. When niel said he was gonna make it rain... Baby boy does not lie...

Thank you to those that came. Thanks baby love for my lap dance, tons of shots, and for givin me money to put down girls g-strings, down my bra, down her bra.. whatever...

Thanks to a very eventful night of girls copin a feel, hittin on me, gettin glitter lip gloss on my chest, and for good company...

Hiroko



Niel gettin ready to make it rain..


The ones that showed...


My new stipper goin with gal Hiroko


Best Friend Philip


This guy totally put a smile on this girls face...

before i head out... one word...

Disappointed...

UGH...

time is going by really slow...

come out tonight! $2 beer and $3 shots along with live music...

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=403676693

i miss...

YAY!!!

After months of dreading the loss of my last camera back in june, Niel surprised me with a NEW one! YAY!

Recap on Birthday/Thanksgiving...

Bounce house $75 ( no additional charge for holiday or keeping it overnight)



Pinata full of candy, $50 worth of coins, and bubbles




Alcohol purchased a month ago $31 (90% off sale)



Enjoying the company of others ... priceless...

Recap on COLDPLAY

BEST NIGHT EVER!!!

Arrived at the honda center around 6pm, got my souvineers, food and our seats. Arriving early is the best thing ever cause you don't miss a thing and it gives me a chance to check out the place. The opening acts were good. My seats were great. They were not exactly up close, but good enough to watch from a far and on the screen. Before the show Niel told me that they were going to play behind us cause there was a mini stage behind us. I didnt believe him. Sure enough... there they were.. coming down the stage, jogging down the asle, up the stairs and a few seats behind us.. right onto the mini stage...



AMAZING SHOW!!! ( sorry kate i couldnt send you a voice message ). And at the end of it all, while walkin out of the arena, i noticed it was raining. I was super stoked to see it rain that i ran out there with Niel and we just casually walked through the rain... BEST NIGHT EVER... Thank you baby love...

(a few pictures from the show)

Before...


After... SOLD OUT show


BABY LOVE!!!


COLDPLAY!!!


BUTTERFLIES...

Black Friday...

I could not get myself up early this morning to deal with crazy people, fighting to get that last item or wait 3 hours to pay for one item. Currently I'm at firestone tire gettin my tire fixed (for the third time).apparently I'm notorious for getting nails in my tires. So while I'm waitind, I decided to walk to target. Not as bad as I had anticipated. I did get the dvd's I wanted and 4 pairs of mittens and I spent only $50.I saved $72.08! I know how to save! Now I'm waitin for my tire to get done.

Ill recap you on my thanksgiving as soon as I get home...

test?

So since kate tested hers... I want to see if mine works off of my blackberry..

its been awhile..

i realized its been awhile since i had been on this thing.

i finally dropped metro pcs. it was getting ridiculous with my drop calls and if i wanted to leave out of my "coverage area" i needed to put more money into it. i finally went back to sprint cause i like there plans better and i finally invested myself into a blackberry curve which is killin me. im so used to texting with one hand, now i need to use 2? hahaha.. oh well..

my birthday is literally down the street, this year it falls on thanksgiving. everyone is more than welcome to come. i wanted to rent an inflatable slide but unfortunately my front yard is not big enough. so i got a regular jumper set up goin on. other than that, nothing else really to update here. work is work,

something ironic my father said the other day at lunch. we were sitting at the table and he says to my sister " why dont you invite "so and so" to thanksgiving?" in my head im like "seriously?" (only a few know who im refering to that being raine,myke and niel) but anywho, that is such a closed chapter in all of our lives and i dont get why my father thinks its ok to invite that person. they are placed in that catagory for a reason and that reason alone. its cool to associate a hi or that very common "nod" but they dont need to be at family gatherings anymore.

SO... as i sit here at my work desk, i cant help but feel sleepy. this change in weather is making me sleepy. i see its going to rain. i hope not on thursday though.

Im super excited for tomorrow though! Boyfriend surprised me with sold out tickets to Coldplay! YAY! its been awhile since ive gone to a concert.

another birthday???

Happy birthday WINGARD!

BIG THANKS!

I would like to thank everyone that came out on Sunday (yeah i know)to Disneyland. it was a LONG day and LOTS of walking, but hey, it gives us a break from reality for just a day. I will soon be posting pictures. I've been totally drained with Niel's birthday week and especially Disneyland. But for sure I will be doing it soon.


HAPPY 11/11!!!

Happy Birthday!!!

BOYFRIEND!!!

happy birthday...

PHILLIP!!!

what to think?

i can't help but feel upset for prop 8. i was really hoping it wouldn't pass. i should be working, but instead i keep updating the internet website hoping for the slightest change in the results. this past halloween, i got to spend it in west hollywood. And i totally loved the atmosphere. there were maybe a good handful that was promoting yes on 8, but majority there were against it. but it was a fun and eventful evening. i would continue to support them and will totally party it up there again next year in west hollywood.. costume and all.

for obama, niel tells me, "at least you can say where you were when he won". i guess you can say that 2008 has been a pretty eventful and very memorable year. its something you would want to tell your future children and grand children about...

what my thursday consisted of:

1. waking up early to get ready and line up at albertson's since it was the last day today before they close down.
2. stand in line for 5 min cause they opened up at 8am
3. laughing at all the mexicans running to the alcohol section to get all the coronas since all alcohol was 90% off! (nice) even the cigs were 90% but i wasnt even thinkin of buyin them since i dont smoke... (stupid me)
4. spending $31 and saving $198 on alcohol purchased (nicer)
5. workin 9-5:30pm.
6. online all day cause there is no work for me to do and my boss is not in yet. (its 3:00pm right now)
7. going to drive safely home after work cause off all the alcohol in the back of my car and the 2 hug glass mugs from oktoberfest that still have the scent of beer on it. dont want the police thinkin im a alcoholic.
8. unload my car
9. shower
10. dinner in the valley with niel and his brother.

thats what my thursday is going to consist of. in a nut shell..

i cant wait for next week. super stoked!

Nov 3 : roscoes chicken and waffles

Nov 4: Takin niel to his very first hockey game

Nov 5: hittin a few balls at the golf course

Nov 6: hmmm

Nov 7: Phillips birthday! (YAY)

Nov 8: Je'ts baby boy's birthday in lancaster for lunch then buyin my disney pass at night

Nov 9: DISNEYLAND!!! YAY!!! (i've missed kate dearly)

Nov 10: Niel's birthday dinner with family

Nov 11: dinner

Nov 12: ::secret::

Nov 15: Laugh factory in long beach

and thats just next week...

the waiting game...

Today marks the 4th week. i should be getting my results soon. UGH so nerve wrecking... again...

other than that.. so much to look forward to. a friend of mine contacted me from new jersey. she is actually here for the rest of the week. excited to see her. i was more surprised that she found me. its been such a long time. i wish i had known she was here sooner.

so niel's birthday week plans are in full effect!... all that i want to have planned out, is in tact. i think im gonna jus call it my birthday week..

YAY i cant wait to see my canadian people! 9 days and counting!

like me...

for those who really know me, i like to take quotes from anything.

i got a message from a friend of mine ( i like to call her friend) and i got to thinking. i never really get to see this person, but we write all the time. and now that i have opened up a bit about things, i got to thinking.

i was there to help her through her issues and in a sense she looks up to me. i vented a lil to her, and with the advice she has given me, i look up to her.

so my thing is, there are so many out there that people admire and wish they were just like that person. but the thing is, you don't know if there is anyone looking at YOU like that. of all the millions of people out there there is at least one person that is looking up to you. its weird. if you sit there and just think about it. of all those people you are grateful for meeting or just getting to know, you may never know how they really feel about you. you could be just an ordinary, regular person and not even know that there is someone that is envious of your life.

the one thing that really got me in her last message to me was:

"just know that whatever u have right now God wants you to have and whatever you loose God wanted you to loose it."

im not big on religion. but this one kinda got to me. so in a sense i guess its helping me with closures to my insecurites. but i still cant help but feel that im still missing something.

Update?

So i started working at a home health company doing office stuff. its got its advantages i guess. at least it keeps me occupied for the time being til the results of my boards comes in, which by the way should be comin in hopefully next week. seriously killin me here.



so october is coming to an end. plans? many... oktoberfest on saturday thats for sure. ive been wanting to go, just never found the time or the right person to go with.



november is what i cant wait for... so many things are planned just for the first week, which happens to be niel's birthday week. i cant wait. i have so much planned for his week. just the cost i need to take care of. but it will totally beat out richie's vegas plan with his gf.

ahh and how i missed hearing from philip. "i cant wait for your birthday dinner!" and i get paid on that day too!

So?

My weekend kinda felt vague. I felt that I needed to do something, like study or something. I can't seem to shake off the idea that I'm free. So I'm trying to plan out my trip do Disneyland. Along with that, there are more things I need to handle or I should say "plan".

So far for October:

Ian's daughters baptismal/birthday

Jeanette's birthday @ Rockin Taco Cantina

Halloween

November:

Arrival of the Fil-Can friends

BIRTHDAY WEEK FOR NIEL BEGINS!

Disneyland!!!

Niel's birthday

BIRTHDAY WEEK FOR NIEL ENDS...

Anniversary Date

BIRTHDAY WEEK FOR ME BEGINS!

Thanksgiving

BIRTHDAY WEEK FOR ME ENDS...

So far this is what i got for the 2 months.

Nick and Norah

AWESOME MOVIE!!! 

just waiting on Niel to hurry up and get dressed so we can eat and watch another movie... but Nick and Norah's infinite play list.. definitely a must see...

Relieved...

finally... done... no more 8 hour study trips to the library... no more late night sessions... no more stress... finally can go out without stressing on what i need to read or what lab values to memorize... DONE ::for now:: ahhh...

now just got to wait...

finally can go on a date and just relax...

Christine!!!

Happy Birthday Ms. Christine!!!

random thought

I can't even remember how this topic came up, but out of no where I asked this...

How is it that all these gang members worship god and jesus, get tatoos of the cross on themselves, wear the cross and what not, yet they still believe in violence and killing others.?

Pretty stupid if you ask me.

Break...

I should be studying at this point. As I was going through my lap top bag, I found this piece of paper that I would use to jot down quotes from TV shows. This was one of my favorite ones.

"Living inside your head with all those thoughts, they'll crush you. Make so that with those you love, your all alone. What could of happened?... What would of happened?... What you prayed didn't happen?... Did you make the right decision?... The only way to get out is to face what really did happen. Embrace it, own it, and the remedy will appear."

How I miss October Road. Now I will never find out who Sam's dad really is. ::thanks Niel for trying to find the whole season for me while you were in the Philippines::

Frustration

Dictionary.com defines frustration as

1. a feeling of dissatisfaction, often accompanied by anxiety or depression, resulting from unfulfilled needs or unresolved problems.

That is where I am today. And where I have been the past few days. Ever since I got back from Canada, I have not been able to have normal dreams. And I have not been able to get a full good nights sleep for almost a week now. I have so many things juggling through my head. I was so scared to open my planner cause I was scared that if I looked at the dates, that they would just start juggling around. I have yet to put in the important dates cause I don't want to worry about that stuff yet til after Oct 1st.

I finally got a job, but I was scared that it was going to cut into my studying. But they understood and said I could come back on the 2ND. (one down). My friend's problems, but I got a call last night saying everything was resolved. (another one down). I think those were my main frustrations until today. My car dies. I had a feeling she was gonna kick rocks this morning when i couldn't get her to stay on. But my dumb ass still tried to drive her. Sure enough, as soon as i turned the corner, my steering wheel totally locks up and I'm forced to turn to the next road, barely missed hitting another car. Sure enough, she dies in the middle of a residential road. My frustration builds. So many things were running through my head at that point. "whats this going to cost me? How am I going to move my car?I SO DON'T NEED THIS RIGHT NOW! How would I get to work? How am I going to get to Pasadena to take my test?" so sure enough i tried to start her again, she shakes and dies. So I tried to push the car myself... ugh yeah.. I'm not strong enough. So I called Niel, (went to look for cables and was on his way) EJ (since he owed me many favors, but he was in class), Matt (he was at work), and then Bobi (but his phone was off, but finally called me). I luckily got my car started somewhat just enough to move to the shade. Bobi finally shows and so did Niel. At the end of it all, it turns out something just drained my battery and it wasn't that i needed a new alternator or battery. So another frustration done.

Finally got to the library to study for another 5 hours. I can't wait til this is all done and i can start to work. As Niel puts it "he finally has a suga momma"... damn straight!

Ahhh...

I got this today from a friend of mine...

"but thanks for understanding all my problems :]
you've been so helpful with my process of getting over him.
seriously i always look back on our messages whenever
i start feeling sad or like. get that hint of confusion.
whenever i log on myspace i know this sounds dorky but i look forward to you response cause ur really an ate to me!!
i dont even think my friends know as much as you do hahaha
omg i was tellin my best friend how my "ate michelle" is datin a FULL FILIPINO boy who isn't into cars.. she was freaking out hahahahahhaha

i love it :] "

its good to know i left an impression on someone... i feel that my life is about 80% complete

A friend in need...

Tonight, totally random. We were going about our night at home til out of no where my phone rings. No one ever calls during my shows, so when niel told me who it was, i thought to myself... "thats kinda random? i wonder if that person was trying to kill the show for me" i tell him to answer it and he does and then he quickly gives it to me and says my friend is crying. i was like wtf? so i try to talk to my friend. and i hardly make out what they are saying. then they say they would call me back.

so i waited. went about my night. then around 11:04pm, my friend calls me saying "i need you" and without hesitation, i leave. i quickly got my stuff and niel got the car started and we left. so much drama... as i sat in the car pondering what could of happened, i couldn't help but think... "of all the people i have met, this person i know i could totally depend on if i ever needed anything, and vice versa. I asked niel if it took me long to get out of the house and he said no and it was a good thing he drove cause i would of drove like a mad lady on a freeway. i asked him if i should call their mom, but i wasnt sure. (now i know why i keep my friend's parents phone numbers). but i needed to retrace previous conversations i had with my friend about their parental issues. so i left it alone til we got there.

everything was a bit calmer now, story made more sense. tears were shed and wiped away. my friend already knew this, but now they know even more. That im always going to be their for you. Without hesitation, no second guesses, just tell me you need me to save you and im there.

Unforgetable...

June 6, 2008

is a date i will never forget

or forgive...

SO!!!

I go to the DMV today. I needed to get my tags taken care of. So as I'm sitting there waiting for C146 to be called, my eye catches someone walking towards my way. And in my head I was thinking "oh god, I know he is going to sit next to me" and sure enough... he does. Of all the freakin open seats at the DMV, he had to sit next to me. Its bad enough I get paranoid with all these people at the DMV, but to sit right next to me? So right away I call Niel just to keep me company and then Von calls me to rub it in my face that he is at Guppy House. Then they finally call my number. after waiting 15 min to get called, it took her less than 2 min to give me my tags. Then I got to thinking, I feel bad for these people that work at the DMV. They have the same routine every day. Type this, rip this, attach this, stamp this, give this... As the lady was doing my paper work, I noticed how its so routine for her. The way she takes apart the paper and tosses it so perfectly onto her tray, its so routine.

I finally get out of that joint. Did an errand for Niel and then washed my car. Then me and Niel met with Raine and Bobi for dinner at Guppy House (thanks Von). Then we caught up on my shows that I missed while I was gone. And I got to chat with Myke's girlfriend for a bit. I totally LOVE that girl. She is so much fun. Even though I only got to hang out with her for a week, it feels like I have known her for so long. I'm glad Myke has her. I'm glad Niel likes her. Imma make Raine like her! hahha... there was so much that happened today.. but its OK now. Niel talked me through it and its all good. Its no longer MY problem anymore. Its someone else's.

Let's Catch Up Soon...

so now that im back from canada, theres so much i need to take care of. im still feelin a bit overwhelmed. but its ok. its do able...

im really missin the chill weather and clean air from canada. i miss my cousin's and friends out there. my facebook has been totally blowin up since its really big out there in canada. most of the pictures have been put up. for the week that i have been there, i have taken a total of 900+ pictures. that there is alot. and thats just a week.

now its total study mode. but i do need to set some side for my lovers. i know i need to catch up definitely with Von and make sure he is doing well.

and then there's Phillip who i like so much. (dim sum soon?)

i need to see Ella since she did me such a great favor ::i have something for you::. she basically helped me put a smile on my loved ones face everyday.

i cant wait for October 1st to be over. super excited to see ciena, boo boo, Eva and who ever else comes down from Canada in November. totally miss them.

ugh and the dreaded time to look for a job... bleh.. then save enough to move out on my own...

so i know what im doing this all for... i already knew.. it just seems to grow more and more everyday...

Finally home...

So I'm finally home. Now it's back to bad air, dirty streets, rude ass people and study mode. My test date is soon approaching, but i can't feel but overwhelmed when i think about so much that i need to do. UGH... STUDY MODE... but I can tell you this, as much as i miss my cousins and new found "fil-can" friends (as boo boo mike would call them) I'm glad to be home. I missed Niel alot. Canada was such a great trip. It totally beats my Rome/Italy trip last year. I also miss my Italy cousins. And as I start to ponder... I have family all over the world!!! hahaha... at least i know i will always have a place to stay.

Things I know i have to do:

NCLEX

Jazmin's Baptismal

Ryan's Graduation

Ciena, Eva, and Boo boo come to visit Cali

Wedding in PI

Set date for Vegas Trip

Set date for Indio Trip

UGH.. SO MUCH TO DO!!!

but i know for a fact... I'm definitely gonna miss this:

thanks guys for hanging out with me every single day i was in canada

i totally love these girls


my "Fil-Can" Family & Friends

I apologize for many birthday greets I missed while I was gone...
Happy belated birthday Josie, Jose, & Marc

CANADA!!!

I'M TOTALLY LOVIN IT HERE!!!

Plane ride was awesome, walking around the airport was awesome, and my care package from my baby love was totally awesome!!! he totally hooked a gal up even though it was only a 3 hour flight...

::: Niel's care package :::

::: arrival to Vancouver :::

::: walking on to tum poles :::

::: getting gelato ice cream :::

::: eating Greek food :::

::: looking at downtown Vancouver @ night :::

And that was just on the day of my arrival. There will be more pictures but that will be placed on my myspace...