like me...

for those who really know me, i like to take quotes from anything.

i got a message from a friend of mine ( i like to call her friend) and i got to thinking. i never really get to see this person, but we write all the time. and now that i have opened up a bit about things, i got to thinking.

i was there to help her through her issues and in a sense she looks up to me. i vented a lil to her, and with the advice she has given me, i look up to her.

so my thing is, there are so many out there that people admire and wish they were just like that person. but the thing is, you don't know if there is anyone looking at YOU like that. of all the millions of people out there there is at least one person that is looking up to you. its weird. if you sit there and just think about it. of all those people you are grateful for meeting or just getting to know, you may never know how they really feel about you. you could be just an ordinary, regular person and not even know that there is someone that is envious of your life.

the one thing that really got me in her last message to me was:

"just know that whatever u have right now God wants you to have and whatever you loose God wanted you to loose it."

im not big on religion. but this one kinda got to me. so in a sense i guess its helping me with closures to my insecurites. but i still cant help but feel that im still missing something.